One Republic - Apologize (Good Audio)

This is the original version without Timbaland

"You may only be one person to the world. But you may also be the world to one person," says Edwin's Chookchai Thai cup.

My Lappy Aka Outofbounds had just passed away yesterday. At Cine iShop, Peter helped me with the "recovery" of the lappy and it turned out to be an autopsy. His COD is unknown and as Peter puts it," It is time to go."

He was my biggest asset I've ever saved money to get.

And now I have to get a new one. I know it is just a lap top but he had been with me to places like Taiwan, Bali and the office. He had been a real important mate. Other than feeling lost, I am just hoping I can still retrieve some data from the hard disk dug out from him. I can't bear to get a new one... But as Lynn puts it, "It is easier to move on if you find someone new." Lynn's damn funny. She was entertaining me while i am trying not to cry alone in iShop.

But as I was in the iShop holding my tears, they kept playing this song and I fell in love with it. Apologize by Onerepublic feat. Timbaland.

music video is here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fm0T7_SGee4

Thank you to Peter and Lynn and Changli for laughing and yes, Edwin for trying his best to keep me laughing when he is not feeling that good either. LOve all of you!

Let Somebody In
The Magic Numbers

But you don't know how
And you want to feel
But you're not allowed
And you want to cry
But you don't know why
And you want to give
But you're not that kind

When you gonna let somebody in?
You might get hurt just a little bit
When you gonna let somebody in?

Said, you want to love
But you don't know how
And you want to trust
But you're not allowed
And you want to cry
But you don't know why
And you want to give
But you're not that kind

When you gonna let somebody in?
You might get hurt just a little bit
When you gonna let somebody in?

You want to love
But you don't know how
And you want to feel
But you don't know how

Favourite song for now.

Jess had gone to Australia... Felt kinda bad that I could not send her off cos I was off in Bintan. But I am quite glad that I need not shed tears in Changi Airport cos it will be so embarrassing. Instead I cried over the phone in Bintan. Heh. Heard the rest cried too. Dun try to bluff me.


Our sentosa trip before she left. Cos we went to sentosa back in those days when we all had bad hair days and really really bad fashion sense. Luckily i din have the negative. if not i will definately post it here. ha ha.

Yes... the kind of photos Jess take when we are all caught off guard.

We'll miss your thighs....

And your powerful crocs!! Damn... i am already having the withdrawal syndromes of without-Jess days.



How time flies right? One moment we are dressing up for Racial Harmony days by the Chung Cheng hu and now we are lawyer, chemist, OT, marketing people in the making.
I am glad we turn out these ways and not like some of the people that you read their blog and go "wow! she/he is screwed..." (Remember that night when we chilled at Lynn's place and we were reading some of the screwed up lives on their blogs? heh heh)

But I missed the days when things were much simpler. Sigh sigh sigh.

Love you babe. Please update your Facebook account yeah.

Love you piggies!

Just sent Jac off on Sunday. Babe, we are so gonna miss her and her screamings on Tim's car. Haa haa. I am so envious and happy for her that she is leaving this shit hole country.

Remember remember... This was her birthday dinner at MSQ. Not very grand but nice...


When she and Peini went mad over the winter-y stuff. Cute la. The two of them.


Me, as usual trying to squeeze 4 heads into one photo with my superb "zi pai" photography. But i like the effect. All of us just having fun and drinking teh and having fried dumplings. heh heh.

Yup. We took this at the airport before she burst into tears after hugging her relatives.


Now, I am wondering... Who will send me off when I leave the country and who will cry for me? I know this is rather sick to think this way. But hey, I am sick this way.

So this is my plan: I will leave Singapore for good to work in another country. Like Taiwan, Hong Kong or USA or even Europe. For 2 years. Simply becos I can't afford further studies financially and in practical timing, I will be too old to give birth. Ha ha.

So I am going to save up in the next 2 years and i will be able to fly off and i will know who will send me off and who will cry for me.

I still think i am a genius. At least i have a dream to pursue now :)

"How do you expect someone to love you when you don't love yourself?"

I was told.

Yeah. Cos I thought with people loving me, I am loved. I like the idea of destroying myself and having someone else to save me. I don't even give a fuck with all the smoking and drinking despite knowing how I am killing myself. I am just looking for someone to stop me. To care enough to stop m. To save me. So technically I am not responsible for myself. My hero-to-be will.

Until he reminded me. Without taking care of myself, how am I supposed to give someone that problem?

Guess I took it for granted that there will be someone there for me always.

This is so screwed up. I am fucking my life up and I can't stop.

Fuck.

3rd Night of Celebration. 15th April 2007

I met up with Felix and TH for clubbing at St James and we had good time dancing to the tune of Nelly Furtado. As usual, the DJ there loves to play "Hurt" and "Unfaithful" back to back. i wonder why. But I enjoyed myself there, meeting Steven (the boy that i had met there previously. looking still so cute. heh heh.) and knowing Junior who is studying to be a hair stylist in Monsoon. hur hur hur.


I still got free ride home from Soldier. Heh heh. See these lovely guys again later for supper. Something that is so memorable and precious to us. heh. Bak Kut Teh! Here we come!

2nd Day of Celebraton. 14th April 2007.

It was just a normal sms from Tim asking if I am free for dinner on this day. Thinking it was another soccer match that he want me to witness, e.g. How Arsenal lose (they did not lose that night, by the way), I agreed. Surprisingly, he asked if I wanna eat home cooked and he can prepare it at his home. Aww. I thought we might end up buying pizza. But this is what we had...

We went shopping at Cold Storage, one of my favourite super marts and he just let me choose whatever i want to eat la.
It was almost perfect. Like the way I always liked it. Home cooked.

With some sausages,pork knuckle, salad, tomato soup (my favourite!) and to add to it, there was Ice Wine. Bloody good stuff.



If he had dropped down on his knees and asked me to marry him, i might even agree from the amount of Ice Wine that had intoxicated me. It was so nice. Like how Tim will say," Very Nice" in his Borat way. haa haa

And there we were just eating, drinking wine to the tune of Ella Fitzgerald and some Bossa Nova. This is life. Despite the fact that we can't have the Rewind button, i wished i could Pause the night and make it stay this way; with me bring Happy and High. No upsets. No Expectations. No disappointments. Just plain fun and friendship.

And then he surprised me more with the gifts!

The rocking horse charm that I always wanted and the super retro birthday card i loved from FunkDeco. Damn I love this boy. Now I really owe him a skinny tie and alot more for his birthday next year. haa haa.

Jac dropped by and sorry... we did not take any photos cos i looked really burnt that day. heh heh. but i lurve the cookies!

Despite an idiot calling and almost ruining my night, I enjoyed watching GoodFellas in the really cold living room and with Jac and I dozing off once in a while.

I love you guys. Really. More to come when Peini comes back with my alcohol and we can have another round!! :) Muaxxx!!

1st Day of Celebration. 13th April 2007.

Whee~~~ I was so happy over the weekend, I still quite stop smiling to myself thinking about it. Last Friday, I booked a room at Gallery Hotel and boy, did we enjoy ourselves!

The hotel is beautiful. With room numbers on the floor and both my guests presumed the room correctly by hearing my laughter outside at the corridor.

Although sometimes it felt like someone or something is missing...hmmmm



Karen and I had fun testing the lights and took photos while waiting for 2 more pretty people to arrive.

When they reached, we had fun with the cushions...heh heh...

Then it was off to DBL O for more drinks and fun!!~~

Tequila shots...


High people...

Wonderful babes...

We later went 7-11 where I got to choose my birthday "cake" and I got dark choco M&M, Ferrero Rocher and Coke!! for my presents that night. Ha!!

There's my cake!


While the 2 "high" people enjoy themselves among the balloons...


the other 2 are really busy burning 11 candles on my cookie dough. heh heh.


Before I slept that night after finishing the cookie dough with a can of Coke, i announced loudly:" This is the reason why I booked a room! Cos I do not need to bathe!!!!" and I slept without knowing and yes, without bathing (benefits of being the birthday girl. heh)...

And it was morning and after much lazing around, we were off to the pool and me to practise swimming!


Not without taking some last few pictures with the lovely balloons. The night before 3 balloons actually burst in my face. Argh.


Dear beautiful photogenic peeps, thank you for the balloons, ice cream, chocolate and Coke. And yes, the birthday present which i can only receive 2 months after. I love them all and I enjoyed myself so much i really din wanna check out that day. As discussed, we should do this more often! This is life and this is how life's gonna be if you wanna be happy. No?

My New Song

After watching R&J musical edition, I found a new song. My Song.

Young Heart Run Free
What's the sense in sharing this one and only life
Ending up, just another lost and lonely wife
You count up the years, and they will be filled with tears, oooh
Love only breaks up, to start over again
You'll get the babies, but you won't have your man
While he is busy loving every woman that he can, huh huh

Say I wanna leave a thousand times a day
It's easier said that done, when I just can't break away
Just can't break away

Young hearts, run free
Never be hung up, hung up like my man and me (oooh)
Hmmm, my man and me
Young hearts, to yourself be true
Don't be no fool when loving is all there is (oooh)
I said I don't love you

It's high time, just one crack at life
Who we want to live in, trouble and strife
My mind must be free, to learn all I can about me
I'm gonna love me for the rest of my days
Caress the babies every time they say
Self reservation is what's really going on today, oooh



Party on!!~~~